So I'm kind of in the process of slooooooooowly announcing this:
I got hired at Sony Pictures Animation, and I'll be started this Wednesday!
I need to say that I'm both EXTREMELY excited and stunned. I mean... stunned. As in... really stunned. To the point where I don't think I've processed it at all.
Like, can I explain something?
I basically never thought this could happen.
Ever. 4 years ago, I wasn't even pursuing art. I loved it more than anything, but I'd given up on it because I didn't think I could make a living or be good enough. Like that was my life. Just someone who loved animation, but had written off my involvement with it. When I finally decided to jump in, I jumped with both feet, and have basically been myopically focused ever since. Life and holidays and birthdays would roll on around me, and I wouldn't even notice because I had a final or a project or whatever else, and I'd just live and breathe this stuff because I wanted to do this. I wanted to work in a studio. I wanted to work in feature animation. I wanted to design characters and help create stories and have them reach people everywhere. That's what I wanted.
And it's like all of a sudden I'm ploughing along and I hit a WALL, just this MASSIVE wall, consisting of people saying, "Oh, okay, well: here you go. You get to do those things. We'll let you. We WANT you to."
And that's surreal. That's fricking surreal. It doesn't make sense yet, and I KNOW the people who hired me, and I don't even believe it. haha. I'm that version of happy that's terrified of being as over the moon as I want to feel. I've conditioned myself into a finely crafted state of being tentative about all good fortune I have. WHICH IS LAME, AND STUPID... but true.
I'm seriously just... so excited. So happy. So overwhelmed, but in a good way.
Dunno. Gimme a few weeks. I'm sure some form of reality will be there then. hahaha